if i had eyes

hello there beautiful, my name is jaimeejones, i am too young to be disillusioned and yet too old for innocence. my micro world is rather the ugly little town, but somehow beauty thrives in the smallest of things and the dysfunctional gives rise to the most awe inspiring, you just have to step back and take the time to breathe it all in. to describe me in one word would be hard due to my short bouts of anxiety and moments of utter hyperactivity. i like to write poetry, taking too many photographs, utterly pointless activities, beautiful people with beautiful souls, procrastination, dedication.. although it escapes me, the unity of contradicting people or ideas, quotes, reading books from beginning to end, meeting new and inspiring people, anything individual/vintage, being myself no matter what anyone thinks of me.. LIFE IN GENERAL ∞
most of the photos which i post are not my own with the exception of a few which are taken with my Canon EOS 50D

So i find myself here again, as low as i have ever been. Struggling with coming to terms with just having learnt another big life lesson. As much as we try to protect the people we love by trying to shield them from the painful truth, sometimes it is better to be honest from the start even if it will kill you to see them hurting. It is so true that you never know what you have got until its gone… That is the story of my day today, moping around because i now realise the predicament i have hurled myself into by being so selfish and naive when i was upset. The last six weeks have been the most amazing weeks of my life. i have grown up so much and realised so many things about myself and about the people i love. if only i had been honest from the start. if only i could be forgiven for the mistakes that i had made in those two weeks when i was being an… well an idiot! my heart is seriously aching from missing a certain someone and i don’t know how I’m going to cope if this lasts… i guess i deserve to be in the pain that i am in, but i wish i could make everything right again.. i wish it could just go away and we could be happy :(